Wednesday, February 6, 2013

some days...

Some days:
  • "up and dressed" is an accomplishment! especially when no tears are involved.  yippee, i'll take it!
  • i still misspell words and don't notice, like saying wimper instead of whimper
  • and when people point it out to me, it takes longer than it should for me to get their point
  • and then i laugh, and hope they can do the same
oh, what to do?!  laughter is a great option, i suspect.

the irritation in my incision was nylon, inappropriately left in longer than a week (yes, i did go see the surgeon for a post-op, and if i had known she needed to remove something then i would have asked her about it!)  ugh!  so the physician's assistant pulled it out while i shook my feet and clenched a wad of pants fabric into a ball at my side...  all the while he's saying "sorry, sorry, sorry! it is worse the longer it's left in..." 'ya think?

will see a pain specialist today -- med cycle yesterday was so unpleasant, so expect we'll tweak a couple of them... looking for the right mix of dampening discomfort without making me into a zombie noodle.  both aspects are important, but for me and my personality, not being a zombie noodle is MORE important than being somewhat uncomfortable (i've got a bit of practice with discomfort and it's much more familiar to me than the overdrugged not-sure-i-could-walk-or-talk state)

all things considered, have to say i'm feeling better today... a little shocked at that and chuckling at my surprise.  think it helps to not have a fever, to believe the anti-virals are helping with the shingles [yup, isn't that an unwelcome guest to the party], and pretty excited to have a week off from chemo drugs!  yes, i know i can't get TOO excited, cause they'll be back in my world bright and early on the 15th, but that seems a long ways away to me right now...

planning to enjoy each day in between now and then, such as they come.

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