Staying close...

For me, gladness comes from the simple things:

• nature
• petting fabric
• friends
• work (most days)
• travel
• solitude

Tumor marker continues to climb... but I'm turning a blind eye to it for the moment...  just had a PET/CT and I am awaiting results.  will make the next choices at an intuitive level and with a sense of humor...

unless it comes with yet more pain... i continue to worry that i will find a threshold of pain that i am not yet able to bear... but once again, i suspect i could grow or surrender in that moment to the experience...