not bad, not particularly stellar either. i do the necessary things, often late. i work. i try to not take my angst out on anyone else. i hurt and refuse to take more medicines for side effects of these medicines, just because i am stubborn and i can... would rather not add to the pile!
got my scan test results today -- considered a mixed prognosis. some things measuring smaller, others unchanged, and one new tumor in the spine.
but since not dramatically worse and no tumors in soft tissues, the oncologist recommends that i stay this course for a while...
and so i shall go on, one day at a time.
when i lived in Murray, i used to have a frequent and frustrating graciousness practice experience with the neighbor's dog. Randy was a black lab who could bark non-stop for hours and hours at a time...
notice me? hey, hey HEY!!! NOTICE ME!!!
i kept waiting for Randy to get hoarse or bored and stop, and he just didn't or knew that eventually he would get let out of his pen to roam the neighborhood, just because THEY didn't enjoy listening to him either.
perhaps i should look at my cancer as a barking dog and have a bit more compassion for it, rather than trying to shove it off of center stage.
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